Monday, September 19, 2011

My tolerance for idle people is zero, I just move on from them & with my life. I find myself not saving number, they're useless. Conversations are just a bunch words with nothing really being said...I'm over all that.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Queen
What is love to you ? All the labels ? The give & take ? Sex ?

What is it to you...
I couldn't feel more lonely. I feel like everyone is trying to take a piece of me. Nobody really knows me. I'm tired of coming across all these users, just means I need to reevaluate my life.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

I plan to make them all fall in love, like Solomon had 1000 wives. I want 1000 husbands.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Monday, September 12, 2011

The crazy thing is I feel like I'm in love, I feel like I'm genuinely feeling it at this point in my life. The crazy thing is I don't know who...I'm not even sure if I've met this person. I just feel like there's someone out there that somehow I'm already attached to, sounds crazy right ? I'm just talking it's 2:50 AM, & I can't sleep. I'm thinking about love & sex. I want both.

African Black Soap

So I'm a new user to this & I'm excited. Tonight was my first night and like my skin feels dry but not dried out if that makes sense. & it also feels ridiculously soft...let's just see how the days progress & see if I have better skin in the end. I also need shea butter as well & a nice moisturizer but not from a local market, a reggae or African store.
woman for self

Friday, September 9, 2011

Pen Pal

I'd really like one, any takers ?
Titles & more titles....I don't want to be anyones girlfriend. I just want to be.

Man & Woman
we can make love..
long ass conversations about nothing...
he can smoke me out & tell about all the good music he knows(vice versa)

But honey, lets just be.
if that's okay ?

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

the sweetest thing I've known
I want to be a mother.

One of the things I want most in life.

Marriage

I'm trying to figure out if it really means something. Or is just a piece of paper of what people justify as right ? Sometimes just being with someone seems like the route I want to take. I don't think I'd mind having babies out of wedlock but that's just how I view things. I do want a big family possibly, but marriage....I don't think so.

Lover

That's what want at this point. Something passionate, hot, real, intense. I should be able to feel you without actually feeling you. Be my friend, lets make love...let's just be. I don't need a title, just you.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Why do I get so tired of a guy so quick ? But then get lonely ? I love aggression but I hate an asshole. I don't want to be anyones anything, but I do want you. Does it make sense, because I'm lost. I feel like I'm in love with someone already, but I've never been. I don't even know the guy I'd be in love with, but sometimes I feel it. I want to be alone, but I want you. I want a lover, a friend...those qualities are the best, I've yet to experience a guy who can give me both. Plus I'm like the most difficult person to make fall in love, so I don't know if I'm capable. But at the same time I know I am.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

idk what love is. but I know when I see it with others just not me, not me.
My petite shape yo
Who am I to you ?
Save me

Rebel Music

Culture

I need this in my life. I feel like knowing where I came from is so important, I can't wait to have kids so I can teach them about it. I want them to be free children, love themselves inside out. Everyone else is from the outside looking in, so I want them to know what's within them.

Rasta Man

When I say where is my Rasta,  I don't just mean a guy with dreads. A rasta is so much more than that, they lived a lifestyle & were all for the people & sending a message. I want a guy to teach me something, help me learn about myself.

Bob Marley

You really grow to love this man as you listen & watch his stories. Watching his videos, I tear up...touches me that much. Yea, he had other women besides Rita but that didn't make him a bad person to me. He was a father, athlete, rasta, and so much more. If you're not listening to Bob Marley, you'll never get it.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Queen
I'm thinking of dying my hair this golden color or keeping it orange ?

Thursday, September 1, 2011

I didn't realize how lonely I was....

The Beautiful Ones - Prince

I show no signs of letting up

Decisions

I'm so tired of hearing about decisions, decisions that people make it seem like that one decision defines you. I'm tired of it....

Horny

Idk being horny is a cool feeling, sometimes I just like to be horny because I want to fantasize. But thats all...
But then sometimes I'm just like fuck everyone................then other times. I'm not.

Relationships & shit

I can get into a relationship, & yea it's all cool at first. Then I'm like wait, this is too much for me. I don't want to be the girlfriend or anything, especially when I know I don't feel the same. I pull away, I don't think I've ever let a guy get too close to me. I know the tricks, I look at relationships like a game at times. I DON'T WANT TO BE THE LOSER. Because you know what you're left with ? Nothing. I don't want to feel that, I've never been in love, but I don't let myself. I make everything difficult, & yet have met a guy to challenge that. I want to be challenged I need to be challenged. Guys fall for me, this girl....who ironically doesn't even like relationships. Who would sometimes rather be alone ? Or maybe I'm just wanting something I haven't found yet. I guess that's why I say I'm a tiger waiting to be tamed, because there has not been a man yet to do so.